The night of the 1st Ocober 2005

I found myself on a bus, I was overlooking Shahla who had just got onto the bus and was about to meet a person for the first time from the internet. This person was female, she came onto the bus soon after and showed Shahla a big white piece of paper, on it, were writings and pictures.

Towards the back of the bus was a group of people, one sgouted to Shahla, 'Have you ever had a Man let you down big time?'  I was next to her and I pointed at him, telling him to shut his face, feeling as if I was guilty.

Then me and Shahla were in a room, it was a new house that Shahla had just moved into,it was empty, I wanted to have sex with her and she gave me a cuddle as I layed on this soft furnishing - she quickly got back up and said 'No, you will get plenty on Friday' I got up and Shahla was busy doing other things, she had so much to do, I left her to it and walked out from the house - it was an old barn, a barn that had people living on top of it, we wasnt suppose to be there, I saw a police car drive up next to the barn. No my Mum was there too, liing ina  place she shouldnt have been.

I told Mum to go quick, she went and left all her things behind, I picked them up (her keys, key ring, necklace, and a crystal), I walked out from the house towards the police car, now there were 5 police cars, we walked slowly away and a police officer called my Mum a stupid Bit''. I pointed to him, told him to shut the fu''' up.

The morning of the 7th Ocoober 2005

The atmosphere was good, the company was great, although there was a sence of awkwardness as I filled the old fassioned bath tub with cold water, knowing that it was about time I had a bath. The tub was outside, I had to get in the bath before anyone saw me. My cousins were around, so was an old friend, they were planning something together and they needed me with them - must have been a funeral, definately a funeral.

The bath was full, I looked around to see nobody was watching me, looking into the next door nieghbours window I saw him hiding behind the curtains, looking out at me. I had to move the bath tub full of water away from his view, I didn't want him seeing me! Up against the wall his view was restricted, I could get in. The atmosphere was erotic for a moment as I thought of getting in the bath. I didn't get in, I had to go, there was no time.

Morning of the 18th October 05

The room was small, a couple of other surrounded me while I looked over a young girls dieing body, the skin as if dead already - giving mouth to mouth I tried saving the child. It was a girl, a young girl of about 11-12. The girl finally awoke, chocking. She then crawled towards a table, I told her that she nearly died. her reply..

'' I was 4 days away'' it could have been 4 hours, im not sure

she thentold me

''It would have been just 4 seconds before you''

She crawled undernieth the table, a jumper lay on the table with 1 sleeve hanging over. She pulled the sleeve under the table with her. I then woke up with a loud groun. It was just a nightmere...this time.

I fell back to sleep and began dreaming about an old work mate who was a very bad person. Someone stabbed me in the back of the head and I remember walking out from a houe and trying to shout 'Ambulence' down a mobile phone. Blood was poring and I became week and fell to the ground. I woke up again.

21st October 2005

The house was big and full of people, I suddenly found myself running outside. The whether was so bad, I mean, realy bad, thunderstorms, winds, tornadoes, the lot. I was running for my life but knowing I wouldnt be able to escape the big sand storms. Poepl were running with me in all diferent directions. The sandstorm was thick, picking up everything as it went, I couldnt see infront of me, I was running blind. Thoughts ran through my head that if I ran too fast, someone may come in the other direction and we'd hit each other. I slowed, looked behind me, and I could see nothing, I was trapped and surrounded with the dust and winds rushing towards me.

Symbols from the dreams i'v had since 21st Oct.

Rat - Water - Being afraid of people - Shahla  - Kieran - Doors - Martin -

10th November 05

Me and mum were enjoying th day in the garden, mving plants from one place to another. Mum was so happy and wanted these plants moved because she would new they would look better near the river at the bottom of the garden. I asked her to go near the river and I would pass her these flowers. Mum walked onto some steps near the water and as I looked at where she was treading, she fell in. It was slow motion and she fell towards the other side of the river and without hesitation I dived in, knowing I didn't quite get my angle right and I could sink fast enough to save her. I opened my eyes in the water and saw her floating down, her hands reaching out and her mouth moving. In my mind I heard what she said - where are your hands. I pushed further down but could no reach, the water went black and I woke - in destress, in anger and frustration. I tried so fast to get back to sleep so I could save her, I couldnt sleep, I cried, I realised, I was awake.

13th November 2005

I shouldnt have been there - there was a sence of being lost and not knowing where I was, but I was there, over looking a small pond by the side of the road. Cars were passing every now and again and it was dark. I cast my fishing line and waited for a fish in this very small pond full of very dirty water. I sat alone and then realised I had to complete something, I had to go and leave the rod but i didn't want to. I ran into the road but a car was coming closer from the distence. I couldnt let the car see me, I had to run back to the pond. I picked the rod up and realised I had a fish! The fish was pulling hard and I nearly fell in but I managed to pull the fish out not before viewing it, splashing in the distance struggling to get away. I took the fish from the water, but the fish was very small, with the fish was some wire which I thought may give me an electric shock, but didn't. There was also another contraption that had got cought on the hook. Its was something used for putting bait inside and I began taking it to bits and emptying out the bait that had probably been in there a long long time. I awoke.

30th November 05

I was in a room with sombody. We were both stood looking at a guy with a gun in his hand. Before him was a chair. In the chair was a girl. She was tied up and gagged - crying.

The guy shot her in the head and I began screaming and panicing. I had to help this poor girl. Knowing that she was shot I expected her to be dead, but she wasnt. The man began asking her questions and forcing her to speek while she died slowly with a gun shot to the head. My hands were over my face and mouth in shock. I began crying and telling myself that I had to help her but I didn't - I didn't move, or I couldnt move. The girl was answering the questions in pain as she bled from the head.

I woke up.

9th January 2006

I was riding on my bike. The bikes handle bars became loose and I eventualy couldnt ride the bike anymore. I got off and looked around me to see where I could get it fixed. I saw a garage that dealt with push bikes. I stood near the gate and a member of staff asked if I needed help. I said my handle bars have come off and he said its not a problem. The bike then became a Car and was on a ramp in the same bike garage.

Suddenly I remember that my Son Kieran is still strapped in the car seat - I had left him in the car outside. I run outside and see a car speeding off with my son in the back. I dash to my car and drive off to the house. The house was empty, children were walking around looking at me, no adults anywhere. The children had taken over the town, I cried with anger and frustration as my son was missing. Then another person came forward and said his child was also missing. Just then I saw something near a tree. It was a babies body hanging upside down inside the tree trunk. Its was my son and I had to live the rest of my life without him. We burried him and later on in life we realised stupidly that the baby was actualy the other persons child and that our son was growing up as an adult with another family - the family that took him from the back of my car at the garage. He would never know his real family.

9th Febuary 2006

I was with my Mum and a girl, we were at a racing stadium and I was ready to take part in a marathon. Thousandsof people were there, was a very nice atmosphere. Me and the girl were racing together while mum watched, I was looking forward to running but deep down new I would never make it to the end. We went to get the tickets from reception which was a buidling in the middle of the stadium. We were best friends and everyone was very friendly. I asked the lady at reception if it would be ok to stop once or twice so I could use the loo - it was going to be a long race, she said yeah and so I went for my first pee in the toilettes opposite reception before we walked out ready to line up. I woke.

11th March 2006

I was driving off with a bus, peple were on board and I new I shouldnt have been driving it. The police cought up with me and stoppped me, I was in big trouble. They said I could go down to the station without hand cuffs, my perfect opportunity to escape and run off. Sure enough when there backs were turned I ran and ran! I walked into my house (a house I used to live in real life) went upto the attic and tried to climb in, there was junk in it, i had to empty the junk out before I got in, they were coming, I couldnt get in fast enough. They found me, hand cuffed me and I was given 3 years. I woke up thinking it was real, I was shocked, dipressed and in panic for a good 10 minutes after waking.

12th March 2006

My son was in the car seat at the back of the car. I drove to a hotel and new that Kieran would be alright in the back of the car, he was tired. I locked the car and went into the hotel to settle down for the night, leaving Kieran to settle down in the car seat and go to sleep for the night. He'd be fine.

I woke the next morning and new he was still in the back of the car, I began worrying about him and wondering if he had slept well, I couldnt wait to get out and see if he was ok. Then I woke up from the dream - I coudlnt believe it, I had to get back to sleep and see if Kieran was ok. For the first time ever I actually drifted back into the same point I woke up from and carried on the dream. I was now swimming in the hotel pool with some people - I had put checking Kieran to the back of my mind, then I remembered he was still in the car seat, I imagined him crying his eyes out! I started running out of the hotel and across some grass, just then I saw a man sitting on a chair, he had a dog, a very nasty dog that thought I was some sort of robber, the dog ran straight for me and bit my arm with his teeth, hurting me, I couldnt get to Kieran, the dog was attacking me while the old man just sat in his chair looking - I was in trouble, I was dieing and couldnt get to Kieran.

I woke up with a strong feeling someone had hold of my right leg, was very strange, my arm was hurting too. Then I began thinking 'I didn't see if Kieran was ok, in the back of the car, where he's been all night' 

21st March 06

I was with a female friend who was trying to perswade me to die with her. This was possible by reading a sertain line from a special book that would atomaticly kill you. The girl just wanted to die and was very excited about it. She was to meet a group of people that would also be dieing with her and wanted me to come a long with her. I refused and said no and also isisted that she didnt go either. Later she change her mind and said that she was just going to go a long with the groups and see if it works and that she wouldnt be taking part and dieing. My female friend was later found dead with the group after erading from this special book. They were found in the woods. I new that she didnt mean to go, she promised me and was really scared. The vision of what happned that night went through my head. She had insisted on standing back while the groups read from the book, but then she got so worried about them that she held hands with one of them and was automaticaly entered into the circle, she dies with them.

22nd March 06 

There was a spirit in our house. As I walked into the living room I saw her, sat playing with our dog. I quickly took a picture of the spirit and showed it to mum, prooving there really was a spirit in the house. Mum got excited and ran into the living room shouting hello. By this time I had changed my dijital camer into video mode and was filming any reaction from the spirit. The spirit lady got up and walked towards me, a jentle high lady like voice came from the spirit, she sais 'Yes, Hello'  she then starting to cruble into small parts and turned into a very nasty evil spirit that took me into paralysis where I woke 2 minutes later. During this paralysis I fealt myself shaking rapidly, my head was spinning around and my body was shaking as though on a vigorous vibrating bed.

09th June o6

Was a terrible dream of distress and abduction. I was watching over the actions of 2 or 3 people who were kidnapping people and then carrying out a very disturbing act. One a time they were kidnapped and tired up, then layed into a box where they were opperated on and given a tube from the mouth down into the stomache so that they could eat and drink and stay alive. However the kidnappers puposefully cut the tube and left them watching the food and drink drip onto the floor - they slowely became week and died of starvation. They would then kidnap someone else and carry out the same procedure. 3 or 4 people were kidnapped while every so often I awoke and drifted back to sleep to witness another person being put through such discusting acts.

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